Motherhood brings a lot of emotions with it. Joy, exhaustion, confusion, helplessness. But boredom, anger, and impatience were emotions I did not expect to experience when I had a baby.
Before I had Ellie I was rarely bored, I seldom got angry about anything, and impatience is only what my husband experiences when he watches tv commercials.
Who knew that a two-month-old baby would bring out emotions in me that I didn't even know existed!
Like a lot of moms, I thought that having a baby would be fulfilling. I would have a purpose to my days, true joy, and my family would be complete. But like everything in this world, it didn’t satisfy me. While I know in my mind that nothing in this world can fully satisfy me, I somehow seem to keep searching for something.
Once I got over the reality that babies are not always life-giving, I knew I needed an outlet for myself in order to be a sane, and coherent mom. Not an outlet that would bring total satisfaction to me (because I've already learned that lesson the hard way repeatedly) but something that would give me life during the frequently challenging days of being a mom.
When I was thinking through what sort of outlet I wanted, I looked back at the goals I set for myself at the beginning of this year. One of those goals was to start a blog. This is something I’ve thought about doing for a few years, but the thought that always held me back was “everyone has a blog these days, why should I create one?”
Comparison is a thief of joy, and fear can often steal our dreams.
So after throwing comparison to the wind, (and along with it everyone's opinions about what I should and shouldn’t do with my baby), I started a blog.
My first thought was, "what do I even write about?" I’ve always loved crafts so I knew I would have a DIY section. While I cringed at the idea of writing about motherhood because everyone has a mom blog (again comparison and fear flaring up) the fact is that I am a mom, it’s what I do 20 out of the 24 hours in the day, so it made sense to write about it.
What I soon came to realize about blogging is that it is much more than just writing. Blogging is Photography, graphic design, computer formatting, crafting, researching, and social media all in one!
I had almost no experience in any of these areas but it has been such a fun journey learning the basics of graphic design, how to take good pictures, and how to strategically publicize my blog.
I decided early on in the blogging process that my purpose for creating "another mom blog" is to bring beauty to a broken world and inspire others to do so.
Revelations 21:5 says “And behold he who was seated on the throne said, “Behold, I am making all things new.” You see, because of sin, everything in this world is broken. Relationships, governments, our children. Everything. This can be a depressing thought, and even more depressing to experience this brokenness in our everyday lives.
But as a Christian I have hope. Jesus lived a perfect life and died a perfect death so that we might be FREE. And like Revelations 21 says, God is taking all of the brokenness in our world and making it new again. How beautiful is that?! In the midst of this sometimes dark and hopeless world that is full of suffering, we have the ultimate hope. That Christ will come back and will make everything that is broken in this world, good and beautiful again.
While I am waiting for his return, I want to do my part in making broken things beautiful.
Will you join me in this mission? It may not be in the way I have, through a blog. But God has made you in a unique and beautiful way and he is calling you to help him in his mission of making things new.
I would LOVE to hear from you! Do you have any questions for me? Anything you would love to see me write or projects you'd like me to make?